i placed a question on my facebook a few days ago- when was the last time your heart sang and why? it seemed from the responses, our hearts sing only far and in between. Some even went on for years! Why should this be? Do we have some internal control that tells us when to experience joy and when not to? Or are we so involved in our daily life that we fail to acknowledge the things that make our hearts sing? Or do we think we don't deserve it? and why is it only the big things make our hearts sing?
i believe we should do it more often. our hearts should sing everyday for the blessings that we have. ..i hear a song coming.." i feel good!!!" yeah lets sing along with James Brown everyday!! LOL
Notice the ordinary miracles occuring in your daily life. Notice the moments of empowerment and of love when you least expect it. you are truly blessed!
For the past month and a half, there’s been clutter on my office desk. Its not that I designed it that way- it just crept up little by little each day until there was a pile of I- don’t- know what on my desk. Pieces of colorful drawings coming out of my discussions, papers and notes, books my colleagues plonk on my desk in their caring way of the things I should learn by yesterday, invitation and business cards from thousands of new people I have just met, my coffee mug, bottled water, laptop, sandwich…..
Clutter affects us on many levels- firstly it is cruel to the eyes, infringes our space and affects our energy in a negative way. Often, clutter is a reflection of the state of mind or emotion that is happening within us. When I REALIZE I have clutter- (often its so obvious we don’t see it because living in it becomes the norm) I start questioning myself as I believe it means usually one of the following (i) what am hanging on to that I cannot let go (ii) what am I confused about that there is no clarity or (iii) what am I hiding from/under?
We need to clear our space. We need to let go whatever that no longer serves us purpose. Recycle, donate, throw,break up whatever. There is no use keeping that piece of paper, handbag, leather strap watch, denim jacket from the 80’s. Ok.. so I tell myself for sentimental reasons I am going to keep this one blue jacket and the white one I used to wear for classes...but 24 of them??? Do I really need all of them? ( some of you fashionistas out there may say yes but that’s not the point for today’s blog). Clutter does not only happen on the office desk, it happens in our living rooms, closets, kitchen, bedroom.-.yeah..you know where your clutter is! Whatever, wherever -clear the clutter! Let Go!
Its only when our space is clear do we allow and welcome new things, new energy to happen to us. We can’t expect things to change when we still surround ourselves with things which remind us of the old. We can’t expect change to happen when we so tightly grip to the past. Let Go! Open up that clenched fist and visualize whatever you are gripping on to is moving away. Let Go! It feels so much better!
Earlier today, I bought a color fest of files to file my papers in an orderly manner and fabulous box to store my knick knacks. I left my office smiling leaving behind a spanking clean TIDY desk! :)
The little aborigine boy whispers " Sometimes we have to get lost in order to find ourselves, Sometimes we need to go on a walkabout"
What a fabulous advertisement for Visit Australia 2009!
I checked what a "walkabout " meant (just to make sure) and its basically a temporary wandering into nature usually alone. A wandering into the vast unknown. We may get lost, we may find things we have never encountered and get petrified! But the upside is, we may also be able to experience the grandeur of life which we would not have noticed or taken for granted had we not left home. In short, i think we learn things about ourselves we never knew existed or find ourselves back, which we had lost.
In the urban context, "walkabout" could mean go off to that much needed retreat, "balik kampung"( a trip back to the village).., doing something totally out of the ordinary..just get lostreally!! For some, the walkabout may take a few days, a few months or sometimes a few years becausewe are so so LOST that we don't even know we are on a walkabout!! But the time does not really matter, what does is the journey and ultimately, the fabulous feeling we experience when we finally get home.
There have been times during our journey together I have not been the type of person I want to be when I am with you. I know.
There have been times I should have shown you a little bit of kindness instead of impatience, I should have given you comfort instead of anger. I should have showered you with compassion instead of negativity and ridicule.
I also admit that I have abandoned you during the moments you need me the most. Wallowing in my weakness, I flee not knowing what to do leaving you alone to cope, in loneliness. However, despite my shortcomings, you have always been there for me. I am embarrassed to admit this but I feel like I don’t deserve you.. but there you stand beside me. Always.
When I am at my most vulnerable, I feel the strength of your soft embrace. When I bash myself up, I hear your soft whispers of encouragement. When I cry and feel all is lost, you wipe away my tears and tell me to smile.. You never leave me-. I just don’t hear you. Why? I don’t even know why. I’m sorry. I feel I have let you down in so many ways… Even as I say this I can feel your forgiveness and you telling me it doesn’t matter.
I haven’t said this for a while because I’ve taken it for granted. I think you know how I feel about you, so it’s not a big deal. But I’ve come to realize that it does matter and it is huge. So, I want to thank you for always being there for me, I want to thank you for keeping me in your warm loving arms, protecting me. I am blessed to have a glorious soul as you to guide me and Iam forever grateful for your constant, unconditional love.
With all of me, I love you. Truly,
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After you have read the above, fill in the top part AND the bottom part of the letter with your name. Read it again, slowly.
A few days ago i attended a conference on Malaysian entrepreneurs. To paraphase Pak Lah in his opening speech he said that " the problem with Malaysian entrepreneurs is that we are so gripped with fear that we cannot on move on a global level".
Fear often paralyses us. Neale Donald Walsch said somewhere that fear is the emotion that keeps us frozen by the curb,. caution is the emotion that makes us look left and right before crossing the road.
We should all learn to throw away fear and exercise caution.
for as long as i can remember, i have always been in search of...everything and anything but especially why i am here.i have come to believe that we are all spiritual beings having a physical human experience.
Often our souls wants what the body doesn't. From there lies the pain. Our journey ( and challenge) i believe is to reunite the two to achieve oneness.., within ourselves and everyone around us.
It is my hope that some of the words or experiences i have written here may turn up in your life at just the right moment when you need it or to share it with someone.Life is too short to live in the past; the present is a gift. "rassa rassa" is a play of the malay language to mean- my thoughts,i feel or i belief.
